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First of all, I’ve gotta start this by telling you I met Kareem Abdul-Jabbar this past weekend. Awesome. He was very nice and super short. made me feel like a giant. Second, I feel so weird and ickster today. I’ve been trying to figure out why…and I think I have finally achieved that goal. You see, my family is in Chicago. And I’m in LA. And this is a very hard thing for me. I am absolutely RIDICULOUSLY close to my family. ridiculously. its wonderful. Everyone is on their own journey/path/whatever in life and that’s cool. That being said, everyone faces ups and downs and topsys and turveys. My major down is being away from my family. I love them so much. Today, it has all been heightened because my brother and his wife are at the hospital and they (well she) are about to give birth to the first baby in our family. And, of course, I don’t mean to bring this moment back to me (yes I do)…but I’m sad because I’m here. not there. i’m here. typing this blog. to you. Which, don’t get me wrong- I love you (really?)…and I am just so grateful that you are taking the time to read about my shenanigans….BUT, I’m not going to lie…I’m feeling sooo sad to not be there with them right now. Regardless, its all ok. this is the life I chose. I have chosen to follow my dream and marry my work. yes, I’m married. to my work. (we will talk about shaadi.com another day). I have committed myself wholeheartedly to being an actor for life. And if that means missing out on the most important occasions in life…real life…then…oh, who am I kidding- WHY AM I DOING THIS? I want to be at home with my family! BUT I know myself. I can’t leave the business. I can’t give up. Acting is my life. Acting is my everything. I have worked too hard for too long. For me, the work itself makes everything worth it. I am infatuated with the struggle. Everyday, all day, I work for this. For acting. Everything I do revolves around it. I live it, breathe it, smell it, taste it all of the time. Friend, if you are passionate about something- do it. do it wholeheartedly. You may have to give up something or a lot of things…and even if it feels impossible- that small possibility of it actually being possible makes everything worth it.
Don’t sad, Sonal. You are strong girl, and I like it at you.
You have chosen the right way… As well as I have done in my live.
Congratulations on becoming an aunt!
Yea, it definitely does stink being away from your family but at least with the awesome invention of the internet and easy access to photos/videos on the inter-tubes, you can still “see” them, just not quite in person
. Keep up the hard work and good luck with your “marriage” to your career. I knew California was progressive, but who knew they were THAT progressive.
I think that thought echos through out LA. “Do or do not, there is no try.” Its a little played out but that saying still rings true.
Ya, you’re very inspiring. I’m a second year medical student. My dreams have always been in the arts, but I just didn’t find it realistic. I wanted to be an actor and I got my first crack at it by being in the upcoming Shyamalan movie, The Last Airbender. A small role. Though, I couldn’t fully be dedicated to it because I’m also studying for licensing exams!!! Arghh.. I’m thinking about giving up on medical school and moving to LA. Still not sure. Sorry for talking about my self. Thanks for the post!
Don’t get down sonal!! You will see the little munchkin!!!
Over time, life gives us a certain resiliency that (1) allows us to endure just about anything in support of the things we love, and (2) helps open our eyes to people who can love us *and* the things we are passionate about. My chosen career forces me to live all around the world, far from my hometown in the midwest, and for many years, I despaired of ever finding someone who could straddle both worlds with me. In spite of some nearly catastrophic mistakes, fate or karma or भाग्य or कर्म made it happen. Looking back now, I don’t regret those years that I was devoted to work, b/c I know it made me much more ready to be a family man.